Tuesday, December 12, 2006

10 til 17

Foul-Weather Friend
I'm always here for you, you know that. But it's okay to tell me when things are going right too. I don't mind helping you try to fix things, in fact, I like it. That's not the problem. I'm not asking you to stop telling me when your world's falling apart, I want to know, I want to help. But I don't want to lose you as soon as your feet are under you again. You can't see someone break down without wondering what they're like unbroken. But as soon as you're mended, you don't need me anymore. Suddenly we don't have anything in common. I guess talking you out when you panicked and needed a friend even though I really didn't know you and really should've been sleeping doesn't count. Maybe I was wrong to expect any emotional investment on your part. Maybe you're just being cautious. Maybe you've learned your lesson about the words "just friends". Maybe you're scared of something, but if there was something to be scared of, I'd sense it a mile off. It's a talent of mine. If I'm not worried, there's nothing to be worried about.

Innocence
Which are you more ashamed of, your innocence, or your lack thereof? Nobody's perfectly innocent, nobody's perfectly corrupt. Which part would you get rid of if you could? Think hard, the answer might surprise you.

Fear
Ever stay up way too late one night because you know that the sooner you go to sleep, the sooner you'll have to wake up and face tomorrow? The funniest thing is that there's nothing particularly scary about the tomorrow in question, it's just a gut feeling.

The Mask
One more side with no shield, bare and unprotected. One more angle an attack could come from, one more mask that's been shattered irreparably. Baby steps. Sooner or later there'll only be one mask left. Can I shatter it? Will it be shattered for me? Your guess is as good as mine. What am I going to do once it happens? Again, I don't know. I've been told it's quite liberating, but it's something I can only do once. Something that is irreversible. Something I can't take back. I'll probably chicken out.

28 hours just keeps looking worse and worse. And at the expense of not only gangsters, but mickey mouse too. I hope it's worth it.

It's like a party in your soul!

Okay Gold, here's me humouring you.

*ahem* Filler:

The Ultimate Song Quiz
by GoldMatenes

Your Theme Song (because of style, lyrics,tone, etc.): Beautiful Day by U2
Best Song To Help You Sleep: Angel by Sarah McLachlan
Best Inspirational Song: Believe in You by Amanda Marshall
Best Song To Give You Hope: Fast Car by Tracy Chapman
Best Song To Be 'Our Song': Old Fashioned Love Song by Three Dog Night
Best Song To Impossibly Fight To: Pump It by the Black Eyed Peas
Best Song To Lose Your Virginity To: A Day Like Today by Bryan Adams
Best Song To Make You Sad (on purpose): Stole by Kelly Rowland
Best Song To Work Out To: My Sharona by The Knack
Best Silly Song: Your Horoscope for Today by Weird Al Yankovic
If You Had A TV Show, The Theme Song Would Be: Jim's Theme by John Rzeznik
Song That Makes You Hate Mankind: Why? by Tracy Chapman
Song That Makes You Wish You Could Fly: Takeoffs and Landings by The Ataris
Song That Makes You Want To Fight Hordes Of Bad Guys Single-handedly: Smackwater Jack by Carole King
Song That Makes You Want To Do A Backflip: One Girl Revolution by Superchick
Song That Really Makes You Wish You Could Dance: Hips Don't Lie by Shakira
Song In Your Head Now: Moneymaker by Ludacris

Warning, these are subject to change at any given moment, as my preferences and moods change.

Keep dreaming
Daydream Believer

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Only I can pull myself up completely, because if I don't, I can't figure out why I fell in the first place.

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I am innocent. I am guessing you are too (by my already skewed standards.) I believe that the only real corruption is the one that causes you to intentionally harm others (and enjoy it.) The rest are societal norms created by religion.

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I shed a fair number of my fears. I am mostly afraid of what people will do next in a troublesome situation, because I am terrible at predicting actions, and I tend to imagine the worst.

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...it's like the Allegory of the Cave, or... um... Logan's Run. Now that I have seen some of that light, I cannot simply walk away from those who are still enchained.

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The quiz was just me wasting time, but thank you for doing it, even grudgingly. It's just a current snapshot of you in music. (My 'favourite song to fall asleep to' and 'favourite song to work out to' change weekly.)

Anonymous said...

You should change your profile. A good start is to stop saying that you're invisible.